grow up already

late night
June 4, 2008, 1:16 am
Filed under: quarter life crisis

i do get the most ridiculous crushes on dudes. it’s terrible. i’ll basically pine for them. but thank christ i do not ACT on them. i keep it to my fucking self (and 8 of my closest friends). at most i’ll talk to the guy. i’ve been crushing on a friend-of-a-friend in sacramento for a few weeks. he’s fucking dreamy, ok? so tonight i was at a party at his house and made somewhat of an attempt to speak to him. he either ignored or didn’t hear me. either way it was game over. maybe that’s premature or lame, maybe his extremely tall stature genuinely makes hearing short girls a problem. i don’t know and i don’t care. that’s as far as i go, i guess. 

and i’m home, about to put on the simpsons and eat some ice cream. for a second i thought that might be pathetic, like am i actually going home and watching the simpsons and eating ice cream the night i possibly got rejected by a hot guy? well, yes. when i was younger i would’ve either (a) stuck around, got more wasted and made more attempts at communication or (b) came home, watched the simpsons, ate ice cream and felt like a total loser because i wasn’t sticking around, getting more wasted and making more attempts at communication. i love how when you’re older you actually feel good about this stuff, even if it reads like a scene out of “he’s just not that into you.”


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